Saturday, December 10, 2016

Smile, Saturday

10th dec 2016

Feeeling super duper refreshed. dunno if its becos of the new pillow after the 4th night.

Anyways, please bless it to be a gd day ahead. 

Please let us fly thru the bad econony ahead like a boss.


Best Regards

Thursday, December 01, 2016

Ennui big time dec 2016

Hello missy

1 dec 2016. thur. 2240hr.

Damn tired.

Teach me how not to think so much.

I am dying.

Fuxk akl the songs.

Take me to be a better person.

I am tired.

2016. i hate u.

Let 2017, be better.

Best Regards

Sunday, November 27, 2016

Thanks jas. Too me 10yrs

27th Nov 2016,

I am alone.
I am nostalgic.

Listening to alot of ennui songs. and james blunt you are beautiful is one of many. just listened to the lyrics again.

Wow, jasper goh had said it 10 years ago.

"You're beautif.. but.. cause i'll never be with you"

10 years.

Mich, have you found your happiness yet, other than alcohol?


Friday, November 25, 2016

5 for Friday

25th Nov 2016, Friday

Alot of 1. maybe abit of 4, and some of 5. all need to change.

Friday liao.

I need to go into meditationyogazen mode soon.

Feeling abit of breakdown and lost.

Let my M strength walk me thru the turmoil that will take me into 2017.


Thursday, November 17, 2016

Who doesnt want to be a tai tai and live happily ever after?

Thursday, 17th Nov 2016

Slept well. thats y mind is so clear. hate fb. see people on fb like sibeh happy, with baby boy after 2 girls and no need to work and can still be an arrogant bitch.

Me work like slave and always consider for other people first, end up like no progression after coming to 4 years already

Not feeling tired. but pondering how to make my life even better.


Monday, October 10, 2016

Falling out with some1 u care so much

10 oct 2016

Told myself dun drink liao. But still drink. Now all tearing up sitting in front of Mother Mary. I love this space. It gives me the freedom to be myself.

I haven't slept well since last Saturday incident. All i want is alcohol numb my tots.

I am falling out with my brother. Like my real younger brother. Simply can't believe just a 2-liner sentence can turn him to hate me like a 杀父仇人。 Even today it is monday already, still the same.

To think all my life i always adore all my family and siblings including my little brother, yet it takes only 2 simple questions of, "what you doing?" And "why dun you go outside and help out?" To destroy a relationship with him of 25 years.

I am always being so proud of him. 



*tears non stop*

2016 has been too tough a year for me. As much as I tot I am slowly achieving all the things that wld supposedly make me happier, i feel stressful and upset along the way.

Maybe I have been lying to myself too much.

Let 2016 pass soon. I am weary.


Friday, October 07, 2016

1st friday of oct 2016 already

7th oct 2016

Feeling sickish since dinner time ytd. Early morning has to rain so heavily. Feeling alittle weary.

When can i really start soaring up in the sky?