Monday, January 22, 2018

Hi, 2018

Hi, 22nd jan 2018.

Alot of drinks. A few solid realmeat hotdogs.


I am happy i think.

I am ready to embrace.

Even if god doesn't want me to be the god of mother, i suppose this is my fate.

20@8. Welcome meback.

I am ready.


Thursday, January 04, 2018

Hello 2018 with Sweet Smile.

4th Jan 2018.

On my ipad, with spotify playing yoga zen meditation music.
In my own new white haven.

Been a month since I have moved back into new reno white haven. Feeling very calm and relaxed and peaceful as compared to the past 1 year of agony.

But still, as i put up this sweet smile of mine, i am feeling this unexplained bitter sadness that i can't relate to anyone.

Like there is a form of regret or something that I just cannot pinpoint at the back of my subconciousness.

Anyway, as studies show, keep smiling and this will trick your mind and body into feeling happier over time.

Lookback 2017, it has been a stressful tiring year for me.

Lookforward 2018, other than the usual wish of people i care to be happy and healthy, I wish for new surprises / unspoken miracle hope in my new life forward.


2017 has been a long year.

So Hello 2018. :)

Monday, December 25, 2017

I fucking hate xmas

25th dec 2017.

I fucking hate xmas. I just wish for all this inner pain to go away.


Saturday, December 16, 2017

Time to say Goodbye Dec 2017 soon

16th Dec 2017.

Just had a long bath. Am at peace. Am feeling the quiet vibes around me.


It has been a long time since i last dropped in here.

I have been busy, busy trying to sort out my life, busy trying to battle thru the renovation of what I call my own.

I have been stressed out, Mentally and physically. But today, i felt it was all worth it.

I feel at ease. I feel myself.

This is my space.

Transformation starts from here.

Someday i'll look back 2017, and I thank life for putting me through this roller coaster, to give me what i have today.

Michelle is finally back.


Thursday, November 30, 2017

Is end Nov 2017, super mental exhuasted

30th Nov 2017, thur

Super mental exhuasted. I need fast progress, i need my space back. Is coming to 4months now that i have been bunking.

I am going crazy already.

Please pray that all these final bits will be wrapped up nicely.

Monday, November 20, 2017

When Nov Ends, Going Mental

20 Nov 2017

Super mental exhuasted. Feeling super underachieved.

Monday blue, feeling failed as a person, as a woman especially.

Pls let my fengshui, luck, life, living conditionn, be better or smooth asap.

I am dying like becoming a zombie inside me.

Heart bleeding and full of tears.


Best Regards

Sunday, November 19, 2017

I choose not to overthink

19 Nov 2017

Had 2 glasses of white wine. 1/2 feel lost, 1/2 feel depressed, 1/2 feel underachived, 1/2 feel failed as a woman and 1/2 hates facebook.

Trying not to think too much. This coming to 4-months disruption to my daily lifestyle is killing me very badly.

Like physically and mentally.

I can't wait to have my own space back.

I am really dying quietly inside of me.

I am losing myself.

Sunday. Gimme the strength to start tomorrow.


Best Regards