Monday, May 29, 2017







Social Media Targeting

Monday May 2017

29th May 2017

Though end of a day of work already, feeling very depressed. Came across this wordings. So true, so sad.

Behind my laughter and smile, there is a an unspoken sadness cum depression.

I have been trying very hard for the past few years, but still no luck. I am very tired, really very tired. As i look on my friends getting so easy with it in fb, i wonder, is it because i am not trying harder?

Or the problem lies in me?

Life is such a rat race. Non stop competition.

So much that i havent eaten the whole day and i am not hungry at all.

I am really tired.


Best Regards

Thursday, May 18, 2017

May 2017 Anticipation

18th May 2018

So tired. Dunno what my head is going thru. Just wish people can 争气abit.

But i dun really care. I have my own goal to achieve.

Hope to have more than 3 breakthru this 2017.

God pls give me the strength.

Mental exhuasted.

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Last Sat of April 2017

29th April 2017

So tired. Mentally and physically.

Just want to sleep and do nth all day and not give a shit abt the world and my daily problems.

But no, my day has just started.

Going to be a long day strecht to long night. ( but slightly different cos is entertaining today)


Saturday, April 22, 2017

Can I buy a Baby?

22nd april 2017
Too many beers bk infront tv.

I donno what i am upset with. The fact that I am still kidless, or the fact that i tried to save some1 in my family out of a trouble with my hard earned money but his car is not in the carpark at this time, meaning hes out to dunno where spinning away his money, which i really hope not and my assumption is wrong.

I am tired at the moment. I am sick and fed up of listening to people preaching to me, ; becos i push for things to strive and excel, i want to be the positive wave, not the 1 thats keeps getting knocked back when I trying to set everything right in the firet place.

Mr S told me his frend wife can easily psen 4k on a bottle of whisky in a high end jap whisky bar in orchard plaza on a random thursday.

When i hear shit like this, .. At first i blame people ard me when i heard this, but then i realise, is EITHER becos i haven't found the one that can give me this kind of lifestyle, or i am not at that level and ready to party my money just like that.

People are always comparing, always fighting. 
I fight so many years, yet tonight car is not in carpark. 
I try to be positive, yet tonight i am still digged of my past, no matter how many times i have done right.
I try to change the current situation to be a better place, yet i still face criticisms of hw i should run the show.

I know why robin william killed himself in the end after being the happy positive front for other people: no1 try to give him happiness or try to be there for him after him giving so much positivyity to others.

They just assume he is strong.

I am robbin williams.

I keep giving. I came to the stage where i feel exhuasted.

Keep feeding me with hbo, fox movies or new movies. They just keep my worries away.

Dear god, i wish for good blessing this 2017.

I am tired.


Friday, April 21, 2017

Poor in a Friday in 20th April 2p17

21st april 2017

Penniless again. Woke up after a messy night. Have I found him yet? 

Sometimes i wish that my life would be smoother, thou right now not so bad, but progress is slow.

All becos lack of more money.

Let me smell the fresh sky soon. 


Saturday, April 08, 2017

April 2017 1st Saturday

8th April 2017


Slept 80% well . Couldhave slpt better, but mind is always thinking about too many things in life. Last month this time, i was worrying and freaking out about many things. Today this time, i am back to thinking how to progress.

Is it me who is just feeling very tired? I hope is just me and me. If others feel tire out easily, i need to change and improve the situation.

Life is a bitch.

Nth is happening for 6mths for my house and 2 years for my dear Hope now. I feel very upset..

Dear god, pls bless me with good progression. 

Can you hear me?

Best Regards

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Lousy March 2017

28th March 2017

This month hasn't been smooth for me. I didn't get lucky, have to try harder. I am feeling very exhuasted mentally.

I wish there is an easier way out, i wish I can get blessed soon. 

But just what am I doing wrong?