Monday, May 29, 2017

我想坚强,但我很累,很悲伤


相信自己很堅強,
但不要拒絕眼淚;

我知道你是真的累了,
才會躲在被窩裡默默掉眼淚。

我知道你只是有點悲傷,
才會一個人半夜獨醉。

我還知道,
太陽再次升起的時候,

你會披好鎧甲,
重新迎接屬於你的挑戰。

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Monday May 2017

29th May 2017
Monday
1728hr


Though end of a day of work already, feeling very depressed. Came across this wordings. So true, so sad.

Behind my laughter and smile, there is a an unspoken sadness cum depression.

I have been trying very hard for the past few years, but still no luck. I am very tired, really very tired. As i look on my friends getting so easy with it in fb, i wonder, is it because i am not trying harder?

Or the problem lies in me?

Life is such a rat race. Non stop competition.

So much that i havent eaten the whole day and i am not hungry at all.

I am really tired.

M



Best Regards

Thursday, May 18, 2017

May 2017 Anticipation

18th May 2018
Thursday
1807hr.

So tired. Dunno what my head is going thru. Just wish people can 争气abit.

But i dun really care. I have my own goal to achieve.

Hope to have more than 3 breakthru this 2017.

God pls give me the strength.

Mental exhuasted.
M

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Last Sat of April 2017

29th April 2017
Saturday
0733hr

So tired. Mentally and physically.

Just want to sleep and do nth all day and not give a shit abt the world and my daily problems.

But no, my day has just started.

Going to be a long day strecht to long night. ( but slightly different cos is entertaining today)

M

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Can I buy a Baby?

2306hr
22nd april 2017
Saturday.
Too many beers bk infront tv.

I donno what i am upset with. The fact that I am still kidless, or the fact that i tried to save some1 in my family out of a trouble with my hard earned money but his car is not in the carpark at this time, meaning hes out to dunno where spinning away his money, which i really hope not and my assumption is wrong.

I am tired at the moment. I am sick and fed up of listening to people preaching to me, ; becos i push for things to strive and excel, i want to be the positive wave, not the 1 thats keeps getting knocked back when I trying to set everything right in the firet place.

Mr S told me his frend wife can easily psen 4k on a bottle of whisky in a high end jap whisky bar in orchard plaza on a random thursday.

When i hear shit like this, .. At first i blame people ard me when i heard this, but then i realise, is EITHER becos i haven't found the one that can give me this kind of lifestyle, or i am not at that level and ready to party my money just like that.

People are always comparing, always fighting. 
..
I fight so many years, yet tonight car is not in carpark. 
..
I try to be positive, yet tonight i am still digged of my past, no matter how many times i have done right.
..
I try to change the current situation to be a better place, yet i still face criticisms of hw i should run the show.
..

I know why robin william killed himself in the end after being the happy positive front for other people: no1 try to give him happiness or try to be there for him after him giving so much positivyity to others.

They just assume he is strong.

I am robbin williams.

I keep giving. I came to the stage where i feel exhuasted.

Keep feeding me with hbo, fox movies or new movies. They just keep my worries away.

Dear god, i wish for good blessing this 2017.

I am tired.


M


Friday, April 21, 2017

Poor in a Friday in 20th April 2p17

21st april 2017
Friday
0704hr


Penniless again. Woke up after a messy night. Have I found him yet? 

Sometimes i wish that my life would be smoother, thou right now not so bad, but progress is slow.

All becos lack of more money.

Let me smell the fresh sky soon. 


M

Saturday, April 08, 2017

April 2017 1st Saturday

8th April 2017
Saturday.

0700hr.

Slept 80% well . Couldhave slpt better, but mind is always thinking about too many things in life. Last month this time, i was worrying and freaking out about many things. Today this time, i am back to thinking how to progress.

Is it me who is just feeling very tired? I hope is just me and me. If others feel tire out easily, i need to change and improve the situation.

Life is a bitch.

Nth is happening for 6mths for my house and 2 years for my dear Hope now. I feel very upset..

Dear god, pls bless me with good progression. 

Can you hear me?
M



Best Regards

Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Lousy March 2017

28th March 2017
0652hr
Tuesday.

This month hasn't been smooth for me. I didn't get lucky, have to try harder. I am feeling very exhuasted mentally.

I wish there is an easier way out, i wish I can get blessed soon. 

But just what am I doing wrong?

M