Monday, January 22, 2018
Thursday, January 04, 2018
On my ipad, with spotify playing yoga zen meditation music.
In my own new white haven.
Been a month since I have moved back into new reno white haven. Feeling very calm and relaxed and peaceful as compared to the past 1 year of agony.
But still, as i put up this sweet smile of mine, i am feeling this unexplained bitter sadness that i can't relate to anyone.
Like there is a form of regret or something that I just cannot pinpoint at the back of my subconciousness.
Anyway, as studies show, keep smiling and this will trick your mind and body into feeling happier over time.
Lookback 2017, it has been a stressful tiring year for me.
Lookforward 2018, other than the usual wish of people i care to be happy and healthy, I wish for new surprises / unspoken miracle hope in my new life forward.
2017 has been a long year.
So Hello 2018. :)
Posted by 雪儿 at 6:16 pm
Monday, December 25, 2017
Saturday, December 16, 2017
Just had a long bath. Am at peace. Am feeling the quiet vibes around me.
It has been a long time since i last dropped in here.
I have been busy, busy trying to sort out my life, busy trying to battle thru the renovation of what I call my own.
I have been stressed out, Mentally and physically. But today, i felt it was all worth it.
I feel at ease. I feel myself.
This is my space.
Transformation starts from here.
Someday i'll look back 2017, and I thank life for putting me through this roller coaster, to give me what i have today.
Michelle is finally back.
Posted by 雪儿 at 5:16 pm
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Super mental exhuasted. I need fast progress, i need my space back. Is coming to 4months now that i have been bunking.
I am going crazy already.
Please pray that all these final bits will be wrapped up nicely.
Posted by 雪儿 at 6:45 am
Monday, November 20, 2017
20 Nov 2017
Super mental exhuasted. Feeling super underachieved.
Monday blue, feeling failed as a person, as a woman especially.
Pls let my fengshui, luck, life, living conditionn, be better or smooth asap.
I am dying like becoming a zombie inside me.
Heart bleeding and full of tears.
Posted by 雪儿 at 1:12 pm
Sunday, November 19, 2017
19 Nov 2017
Had 2 glasses of white wine. 1/2 feel lost, 1/2 feel depressed, 1/2 feel underachived, 1/2 feel failed as a woman and 1/2 hates facebook.
Trying not to think too much. This coming to 4-months disruption to my daily lifestyle is killing me very badly.
Like physically and mentally.
I can't wait to have my own space back.
I am really dying quietly inside of me.
I am losing myself.
Sunday. Gimme the strength to start tomorrow.
Posted by 雪儿 at 5:46 pm