Saturday, December 10, 2016
Thursday, December 01, 2016
Sunday, November 27, 2016
I am alone.
I am nostalgic.
Listening to alot of ennui songs. and james blunt you are beautiful is one of many. just listened to the lyrics again.
Wow, jasper goh had said it 10 years ago.
"You're beautif.. but.. cause i'll never be with you"
Mich, have you found your happiness yet, other than alcohol?
Posted by 雪儿 at 10:04 pm
Friday, November 25, 2016
25th Nov 2016, Friday
Alot of 1. maybe abit of 4, and some of 5. all need to change.
I need to go into meditationyogazen mode soon.
Feeling abit of breakdown and lost.
Let my M strength walk me thru the turmoil that will take me into 2017.
Posted by 雪儿 at 7:18 am
Thursday, November 17, 2016
Thursday, 17th Nov 2016
Slept well. thats y mind is so clear. hate fb. see people on fb like sibeh happy, with baby boy after 2 girls and no need to work and can still be an arrogant bitch.
Me work like slave and always consider for other people first, end up like no progression after coming to 4 years already
Not feeling tired. but pondering how to make my life even better.
Posted by 雪儿 at 7:50 am
Monday, October 10, 2016
10 oct 2016
Told myself dun drink liao. But still drink. Now all tearing up sitting in front of Mother Mary. I love this space. It gives me the freedom to be myself.
I haven't slept well since last Saturday incident. All i want is alcohol numb my tots.
I am falling out with my brother. Like my real younger brother. Simply can't believe just a 2-liner sentence can turn him to hate me like a 杀父仇人。 Even today it is monday already, still the same.
To think all my life i always adore all my family and siblings including my little brother, yet it takes only 2 simple questions of, "what you doing?" And "why dun you go outside and help out?" To destroy a relationship with him of 25 years.
I am always being so proud of him.
*tears non stop*
2016 has been too tough a year for me. As much as I tot I am slowly achieving all the things that wld supposedly make me happier, i feel stressful and upset along the way.
Maybe I have been lying to myself too much.
Let 2016 pass soon. I am weary.
Posted by 雪儿 at 6:29 pm